Gamorningsong

Hey
Iam not sure what to say right now.. but here goes..

We have not spoken in weeks and our friendship has been on my mind alot this week.
We are both at fault here.. for not doing what it takes to be friends over the last weeks. No quick emails, phone calls nothing.
It has been plain out and out silence. Iam taking some blame here to.
It feels like crap to me every time I think about it and not really knowing what to do or how to even bring it up.
I have gone over what I would say a zillion times, each being different from the last.
We have two options here..
one.. just let it die
two.. rebuild and work harder not to let this happen.. if either one see it happening.. say something.


This is what he wrote... the above is what I responded to..
Adam Smith <pepsi31216@yahoo.com> wrote:
Just like old times! Your not speaking to me again!

Current Mood: anxious

Well if adam and I ever talk to each other again.. I guess I better know what to say..
Well.... our friendship in on the rocks and is not doing well.
Neither one of us is giving any effort toward this.. emailing. calling or wanting to even grab some waffle house together.
I just don't know what to do.. we are sooooooo far apart it is not funny.
Its sad really... once so close.. now so far.
He is I guess still seeing Mikes cousin.. I don't know that for sure..
she came to church with him the sunday before my birthday.
I don't know whether to email him to let him know how I feel.. I don't know who he would share it with.
It makes me sad.. but I just don't know what do to right now.
I don't even know if he even knows it has been over 3 weeks since we have even spoke. I waved at him the other day.
There is so much to type I think that I just don't where to start..
The only reason I found out about him dating was I emailed him a picture of Jay miller. it was a BTW thing on an end of an email.

Mike set me up a few weeks ago with his cousin,and we have seem to have been spending some time together. A FEW WEEKS AGO!! WTF.. see what I mean.


Need to go to sleep now.. I have to keep the kids in the am.. new Sunday school time and worship service. ARGGHHHHHHHH

Alot has been going on.. school, work, sleep, nightmares.
Not sure where to start really..
Its has been way to long since I posted.. I should to this everyday.. heck Iam on the computer everyday.
I was on vacation last week.. I had a final on Wed. so I didnot get to do much.
Thursday of last week was really the only day I had to my self.. but I had to get some car work done and tonight the Survice engine light came on and some other things need to get done to it this summer.
Friday I went to a First friday event.. it was an art showing.. it was fun. Got to see some people I have not seen in along time and hear some live music which is always fun.
Sat... Wesley Glen fish fry and the Gospel night at church.
Sunday.. church, lunch, and went to see spider man 3 and dinner at buffalos.
I am not going to summer school.. I need a break of sorts and plus I need to get some finanal aid things worked out.. just some paperwork that they need from me.
Not a big deal. .but there is a dead line on when I need to get it to them
iam leaving now..
Good night for now.

Oh my.. I liked it when he looked like that!! But he really is easy on the eyes!!

Mother of stone

Save in the arms of love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qmhfj0sLy0Q
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One of my favorites..didnot hear this.. but its a good song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GZhZP-o8_A
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the last few days have been crazy.. work sucks.. I have had to close TWICE by my self. The madness has got to stop some how. Its crazy.. I don't have a solution to the problems.
I had a test I needed to study for. A service engine light came on in the car today. My shoulders, side and back hurt.

Its cold.. but what right do I have to complain.
Iam going to take a shower and go to sleep and start over in the morning with coffee!

wow, I can believe its been for ever since I logged in and posted.. Iam on the computer everyday and I don't post.. bad katy!!
Well nothing much going on.. school, getting over being sick since Oct 28th., work, and that is the boring loser life of me!LookingLoff
Looking forward to another year of crowes music, new album and alike.. would like to take a road trip.. but not sure where or where the money will come from
This kids a church might or might not think I want to go to the Bonnorro Music Festivial in June in Manchester Tenn.
Not sure.. what he thinks.
Adam did a 360 degree on me.. nothing there.. I got the I want to be friends and not mess what we have up and so forth speach.
Long story..
Iam tired and need some sleep..
Been having night mares for weeks now.. it really is getting bad.
Don't know what do to if anything.
Grandmother is doing okey from what I hear.. been in the hospital .. mom and Jay are going over there next weekend.. the 26th of January.
Saw Wally, Kathy, Julia, and Namoni for a quick second today.. Wally and Kathy were coming back from seeing her grandfather.
Off to shower and sleep now..

it just sucks to be me right now..

oh my goodness... this should not be this hard .. its only one class for crying out loud..

but need to look over this stuff..